Ritalin

I took my first dose of Ritalin about 20 minutes ago. I got the prescription yesterday but I was apprehensive about taking it or the first time at school. Now I'm nervous that I won't be able I fall asleep and I'll be super tired tomorrow (I have tons to get done)

So far I definitely feel a lot more clear. Im focusing more intently on specific things. Noticing things that I take for granted normally. The "focus" keyword has always really bothered me because it's so ambiguous. That's irony.

Need

I've had lots of blogs. The first post is always the most intimidating.

I have trouble thinking of something clever to say and I get all tripped up. I just want you to like me.

This blog is for me, though. I has no specific purpose other than to give me a place to talk and feel heard, even though I'm sure nobody is really listening. I guess that's how I want it.

I am just looking for commitment and routine. I need something new in my life, an organizational tool and a silent therapist. Something that keeps me honest and medicated. A way to follow through on interests.

Some of the things I'm sure we will talk about include my medication schedule, knitting, Latin, my boyfriend, and food and cooking. Not in any particular order but eventually those will all be touched on.

So that's the first post conquered. I'm glad that's out of the way.